funny route

Yesterday I went out with cousin to slack at Tampines area. So we went to tampines food court to have dinner then we went to T1 to have tea at teadot BUT I think he doesnt like teadot drinks and I guess he is not going back to the place again.

After chit chatting, we went to Isetan at Tampines Mall to see see look look at some cosmetics and facial products and then we went to Century Square for toilet break and walk back to T1 roof top! How funny right? We are really walking AIMLESSLY.

After I felt hungry and went to buy food at MacDonald and back to roof top but too bad by the time we went back it was going to close so ended up sitting outside T1..........

It was a REAL long chat. From 430pm to 130am~~~!!!!! 8hours????????

Am I really that talkative???

Paranoid?

When the truth is right in front of you,
I guess it is best to face though it maybe uncomfortable.

Decided to close up for the moment. Loving someone is going to more painful then being loved. Is this true? Probably I agree to a certain extent but that how/what the way we choose to love someone. Sometime I feel like an idiot who keep liking the wrong person at the wrong time. Well, I am just a human and I will want to escape too.

Being in one-sided love for around 5 years is can be agony at times though the memories are great. So how can I make sure I am not going to be like this again? That's why I decided to close up again to reflect if I can take the risk, the joke, the pain. I still family burden and what if I break down, am I able to pick up myself quickly and carry on my normal routine?

Er... True if u reject happiness, happiness will always run away from and I think that why I am now the way I am.

To be frank, I didnt want to reject happiness but I dont have the courage to take the pain..... which I also not sure how long is it going to take....

Try to or Dont try to?

After so Much

After so much of hardwork, Ever in my life I have never made so much before. This is so much! I must take photos and keep it for memories. Though is really really tired. I slept almost 4am everyday, just to make sure I succeed and I DID IT!!! Lolxx

But I hope you guys like it. This year is a little cheapskate. Will you all mind? I am unable to give real good stuff to my friends even if I want but what I can give is my sincerity in our relationships, be it friends, sisters, partners and whoever walk into my life. I believe it is fate and it serve a purpose, regardless is good or bad. But of course when I realise is bad, the best way is not to get close.. lolxx... realistic I guess.

I think everyone's life is like a storybook. How will you really want your story book be at the end of the day? I hope my story will be a meaningful. For the past 22 years, I have been through good and bad. I don't deny there are more bad than good, more sad than happy. However, the good and happy memories are always always in my mind.

The latest happy thing I have is to get to know him, S. That's what my sister gave him. He who is logical and emotional balanced, positive, encouraging, knowledgeable person. Well, I am do fond of him but he is already attached so he is going to be my good friend. ^_^

Who is the next character to be in my story??????

Horoscopes

Aries and Pisces

Couple with Aries and Pisces as their zodiac sign may have either kinds or relationship – the traits of one either complement the other or act contrasting to the other. There is a lot of personality difference in between the two individual. While Arians love to be leaders, Pisceans love to be lead. The outgoing nature of the Aries would help the Piscean to come out of their shell. Aries is bold and would happily fulfill Pisceans need to be directed. They are fighters by nature which is just what the Fish looks for.

However, the couple can even face difficulty in their lives. Aries are criticizers which is most disliked by the Pisces. The sensitive Fish also can be hurt by the brash and unkind words of the Aries who is used to such irrational behavior. Aries are free bird and love to move about freely and want a lot of space and freedom much unlike the Pisces whose only desire is the closeness of the partner. She is too insensitive for the aggressive Ram and can be left to her sorrows.

Aries Man & Pisces Woman

The union between Aries male and Pisces female can either be compatible or contrasting. It all depends on the kind of adjustment they both indulge in their lives. While the Pisceans love to lean back on the strong Aries, the Ram in return happy acting as the leader. He would be totally amused by her distinctive ideas and attitudes. However, at times, the sharp lash of the Piscean temper can ignite the sarcastic humor in the Ram which can make the environment hot and furious unless either of them controls their temper.

Taurus and Pisces

The love match between a Taurus and Pisces individual will hit Bull’s eye right from the very first instant. They have a quite similar nature and their complementary characteristics would make the union a pleasant one. Both of them balance each other beautifully and satisfy their partner’s needs to the fullest. The Bull is characterized as dependable, practical, easygoing and authoritative, in other words, all that a Piscean looks for in his partner. Same way, the softness and compassion of the Fish captivates the Bull completely. A Taurean loves luxury as much as the Pisces and together, they would weave a home of comfort.

Minor differences will surely creep up in this relationship, but nothing too great that it cannot be handled. Although both are highly passionate as lovers, the Fish is emotional than Taurus and at times, might find the latter a bit distant. Pisceans also prefer to live in their dreamy world, which is contrary to the realistic and practical approach of the Taurus. Nonetheless, the duo would have a strong liking for each other. There would be utmost love, affection and compatibility in the relationship. All in all, the make a perfect couple, with partners who blend with each other magnificently!!

Taurus Man & Pisces Woman

The duo of a Taurus man and a Pisces woman will share great bondage. Romance would outpour in the relationship. Since both the Bull and the Fish are highly romantic, they are sure to bask in the glory of love, affection and passion. Being the balanced of the two, he would bring in calmness and composure to her highly eccentric nature. A Piscean female looks for security in a relationship, which a Taurean male would more than readily provide. However, the Bull needs to be sensitive in order to prevent hurting the sensitive Fish.

Purpose and Value

Was pondering about certain things these few days.

Firstly, what is the purpose of me living here, now, at this moment??
Secondly, what is the value of my life that I want to create??
Thirdly, if I have a choice, which one should I choose? A fruitful, meaningful relationship or rather not have any?

For the past 22 years, what have I done which contributes to my purpose of life? Erm.. sounds negative, Hahaha. But I was being probed with these questions so just pondering...

I guess I made myself knows the importance of managing my time, my finance but not my thoughts. That what I need to improve on.

I was sitting alone at starbucks pondering about the questions. Gotten some answers but may not be the right/suitable ones.

Whenever I give happiness to the people around me, be it presents, giving a helping hand, a lending shoulder, a listening ear, jokes, funny comical expressions, I feel happy. I could actually make someone smile when I thought that I am a pessissmistic person.. I can make someone thinks I'm like a sunflower when I thought that I am not. Don't you think it is contradicting? Me myself feels that too. I want to be a sunflower which can give happiness or brighten the days of the friends around me. But is this the purpose of my life that I want it to be? Not too sure.

Relationship... If I have a choice, I want to have a fruitful and meaningful relationship. I hope there is someone that I give happiness to. Someone who can lead me and I will be there when he needs me. I really want to believe that I deserve a good man. really. But I am scared......... scared of? Scared of being hurt again. I admit self-closed is just to protect myself from injuries by implementing that I don deserve a good one. Now, I feel like changing.. So shall take time to open myself up. "Sisters, Brothers, got time intro me guys... not that I despo, just wanna have more exposure......."

Even though I am a tuition teacher but I will like to emphasize academic results doesnt mean everything, is the characters that counts, the thoughts in mind that affect the destiny and not the CERTS or As that affect it, it may affect the type of environment, the amount of pay, the type of life u living but destiny will still be the same when the thoughts are the same or even worse, when there is no thoughts, no purpose..why? I guess life migth be beating around the bush since there is no directions....

I guess I did change a little of my destiny and I need more and want more of it. tired...


To be continued....

My Hubby ^_^

Today I can upload my future hubby~ New goal : Buy a Limited Edition GRANDPIANO.

Darling, wait for me. :)

Moon

Today the moon is so big! It seems to be very near the earth! Don't know why I get so excited... LOLxxx

Went to my cousin's son. Mikkel's 1st year birthday yesterday and I saw many many young Mummies with their babies and of course I saw my mum the SUPER happy face.

Gosh I feel a little stress but I guess is ok? My sis will do a good job for me. HAHAHA What I have to do is to concentrate on my stuff.

I am attached actually and I am married too. I will use all my life to love him and take good care of him till forever in my life. Mushy mushy~ lolx

I love my hubby.
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Sorry I cant upload the photos.. something wrong with blogger. :)

小鹿乱撞

Nowadays my heart is like 小鹿乱撞....Keep thinking of somebody. Am I in love? Too long never fall in love already. I am kinda uneasy. Hmmmm.... I don't wish to fall in love yet so I pray it will not happen and I don wish that the history repeats again itself. I shall stay away from the person for a while.

Sometimes when you get too close to the person you will think TOO MUCH and I guess I am like this, I assume it to be.

Don't ask me why I refuse to accept the feelings. I don't think is the right time. Moreover, he will not for fall for me too since I am not his dish.. lolxx

My throat is painful!!!!!!!!!! Because of shashimi~~ and Wasabi~~~ eat too much heaty food.

Pls GOD, I am not ready yet.

The DVDs are out at TS now......... I wanna buy! I watched halfway and decided to buy it for collection. This drama is about how the royal princess who is determined to become a KING of the country Shilla strived for her goals, how another diplomat who possess all traits as a leader but she only wanna to be a QUEEN and love authorithies..