Today I lost control and cried like hell. It is just because I lost something ===> my wallet. I never been like this and I think my crying has frightened my sister. I cried as though someone left the world like this.
I was SO happy yesterday caused finally I can START to clear my debts but it turned out to be no avail. Today, is the extreme opposite of yesterday. Not only that, it is the 2nd time I lost the wallet. Ya 2nd time.. so what? but it is the same present i requested from my same group of friends and I lost it twice. How can I not be angry with myself?
This sets to mild depression again. I was so so so pessimistic that I cant focus. Somehow surprisely, I still can teach.
I really feel like finding some place to hide. Not only, I am careless, forgetful, I didnt be a good role model for my sis. All I do is just crying and crying. Maybe I yearned to cry, so I take it chance to blast out all?
Well, I'm not too sure. What I can say is maybe I am too stress out. Don't ask me not to stress myself. I kinda oblivious to stress... it is accumulating but I didnt know. Sound ridiculous? I always make sure I laugh everyday whenever I see something funny such as "PARIS and MILAN". hahax..
Maybe that is not the true happiness I'm having which I thought it supposed to be or Laughing is not enough/does not reduce stress. Or maybe at this age compared to others, I have been like a father trying to sustain a family is kinda hard and will have more stress for me? Excuse? Maybe I have taken some burden that I not supposed to take. I am not a father anyway, I should try and learn to enjoy. Is not I don't wan to enjoy, without money, I cant pursue my dream. If I want to live better than my parents, the more I supposed to do what I want. The difficult thing is how I balanced between the 2.
Is just a wallet. But it make me realised that I having too much stress and I am not as strong as I what I think. But I am definitely good in hiding.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
A call solved everything
I am so so confused today on what I want in future. And I am so nervous but one call solved my problem. I was so hey wire that I went asking around franatically. I never want to disturb him but there is limited people I can ask advice for and not to say someone that can calm me down. So I called him. Thanks to him, I much settled down. I must stay focused.
I feel fortunate that I still can converse with him. Because as time flies, as communication frequency slows down, friendship fades too. That what's I always thought. Or it is a fact? I alway regard communication as a string that connects 2 persons together, regardless of lovers, friends or parents.
I was so tight yesterday and today but now I am relieved. Someone assured me and I got an answer that ring my reminder's bell in my heart. = = = = "What I really really desire?"
Probably friends around me are doing things similiar and I am odd one out, alone, no partners so I may not be confident enough to stay on to continue the journey or I should change route. I shall stay on for a while and evaluate myself again.
Really thanks to him. ^_^ phew~
I feel fortunate that I still can converse with him. Because as time flies, as communication frequency slows down, friendship fades too. That what's I always thought. Or it is a fact? I alway regard communication as a string that connects 2 persons together, regardless of lovers, friends or parents.
I was so tight yesterday and today but now I am relieved. Someone assured me and I got an answer that ring my reminder's bell in my heart. = = = = "What I really really desire?"
Probably friends around me are doing things similiar and I am odd one out, alone, no partners so I may not be confident enough to stay on to continue the journey or I should change route. I shall stay on for a while and evaluate myself again.
Really thanks to him. ^_^ phew~
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Intolerable
Sometime I just dislike to knowing ALL the stuff and somebody just avoid to understand the stuff. She rather accept the instructions than understanding. Escaping from reality, escaping from stress, escape from peer pressure. Well, I wanted to help her to be independent, but I think she is born to be dependent on others. Actually it supposed to be none of my business but probably me myself cannot accept that she tends to be a weakling in my eyes. I could be selfish in this way since both of us have gone such a different lifestyles and experiences but living under the same roof, so I cant expect her to be like me. What I can say is I feel fortunate to have gone through all the painful experience in the past as it has made me stronger in a way or another.
Since it is this way, then I think I just don't be such a bother or to force her to do anything and take care of myself.
I have done what I should have done as a elder sister, whether the effort is accepted or not, I guess it up to her. Good luck to her. :)
Since it is this way, then I think I just don't be such a bother or to force her to do anything and take care of myself.
I have done what I should have done as a elder sister, whether the effort is accepted or not, I guess it up to her. Good luck to her. :)
Sunday, April 19, 2009
To Use or Not to?
Today just browse through High on health and read about BHA because my whiteheads are coming again and I don't know why.
Anyway, I wanted to get rid of the whiteheads but I hate exfoliate because is very harsh on skin. I think there are gentle exfoliation outside the market but I am worry about the content. SO.. High on health, Fran, has intro people the way or products to use. I came about BHA.. It is an acid that can soften the skin and help in exfoliate. I was using this at first but I stop using it because it has high irritability grade of 4. But from what I see from Fran, I think BHA is good if used it appropriately. For instance, BHA should not be use every day and my sis is using twice a day! kinda worry for her. Is good but it will cause the skin to dried up and pores get enlarged if overusing it.
Later, i went to the website that Fran intro her exfoliatiant gel.. Paula's Choice. I was interested in it but I am more interested in the vast information that the website gave.
For instance, if you are shopping around, more and more company are introducing mineral make up as there is report saying mineral make up is good for acne prone skin or sensitive skin since they are made from natural minerals BUT that is not true. You can browse through this website. I was relief that my mineral make up does not contain this thing Bismuth oxychloride.
I strongly recommend those who are using make up to read up a bit on this webby. Not for the product but for the info inside there. It is scientific information on various ingredients using in all make ups. I think we should know all these. Imagine using something that is harming yourself without knowing it? kinda worrying.
" fragrance- and preservative-free, a rare occurrence in the world of cosmetics, but a real plus for those dealing with rosacea."
Anyway, I wanted to get rid of the whiteheads but I hate exfoliate because is very harsh on skin. I think there are gentle exfoliation outside the market but I am worry about the content. SO.. High on health, Fran, has intro people the way or products to use. I came about BHA.. It is an acid that can soften the skin and help in exfoliate. I was using this at first but I stop using it because it has high irritability grade of 4. But from what I see from Fran, I think BHA is good if used it appropriately. For instance, BHA should not be use every day and my sis is using twice a day! kinda worry for her. Is good but it will cause the skin to dried up and pores get enlarged if overusing it.
Later, i went to the website that Fran intro her exfoliatiant gel.. Paula's Choice. I was interested in it but I am more interested in the vast information that the website gave.
For instance, if you are shopping around, more and more company are introducing mineral make up as there is report saying mineral make up is good for acne prone skin or sensitive skin since they are made from natural minerals BUT that is not true. You can browse through this website. I was relief that my mineral make up does not contain this thing Bismuth oxychloride.
I strongly recommend those who are using make up to read up a bit on this webby. Not for the product but for the info inside there. It is scientific information on various ingredients using in all make ups. I think we should know all these. Imagine using something that is harming yourself without knowing it? kinda worrying.
Mineral Makeup: Powder Perfect or Poor Performer?
Homepage: Paula's Choice SGLesson learnt:
There is still some thing that is better than other foundation.
- Companies don't care how customers' complexion, they just want to sell their products. SO! consumers need to armed themselves with rightful knowledge to protect urself~
- The best make up is to get is to buy make up that has as little ingredients as possible but as little synthetic thingy as possible.
There is still some thing that is better than other foundation.
" fragrance- and preservative-free, a rare occurrence in the world of cosmetics, but a real plus for those dealing with rosacea."
Friday, April 17, 2009
An Imminent Wedding
My family is going to hold a wedding for my hamster, "ah B". Maybe my mum going to pick the husbands-to-be tomorrow. Hahahaha.. See if I can get any pics for them.
Just bought my grade 8 books. They are freaking expensive. I saw a piano today and I like the sound very much. Moreover, its quality is better than Yamaha and the key width is smaller too. So, I think is good and suits me well. Just that it is kinda pricey so I think not so soon, even if I want to. I think I will buy that after I got my grade 8 certificate.
My grade 5 cert is here. I scored 124/150. It is a low merit. Not so good. If it is high merit maybe I will be more confident.
I HATE GIRO. It is convenient but it some how takes away the money unknowingly.. TMD.. I....... going to have some obstacles here and there cuz this GIRO thingy causes me to have to change my billing plans and debt plans..
Just bought my grade 8 books. They are freaking expensive. I saw a piano today and I like the sound very much. Moreover, its quality is better than Yamaha and the key width is smaller too. So, I think is good and suits me well. Just that it is kinda pricey so I think not so soon, even if I want to. I think I will buy that after I got my grade 8 certificate.
My grade 5 cert is here. I scored 124/150. It is a low merit. Not so good. If it is high merit maybe I will be more confident.
I HATE GIRO. It is convenient but it some how takes away the money unknowingly.. TMD.. I....... going to have some obstacles here and there cuz this GIRO thingy causes me to have to change my billing plans and debt plans..
Thursday, April 16, 2009
A sudden Crave
I have a sudden craving for Sashimi!!!! I want kajiki, hamachi, sake sashimi~~~~~ really feel like eating... shall go have it some day.
Also!! I want a break.. either going to escape or ice skating or eat sashimi~~
Just had research of ways to go korea and work. I wanted to go there and teach piano but is kinda risky.. I just found out that TEFL certificate is popular there as Koreans are crazy for learning English. I am considering to take up this course and get this certificate so I have dual income or higher chance survival.
Also!! I want a break.. either going to escape or ice skating or eat sashimi~~
Just had research of ways to go korea and work. I wanted to go there and teach piano but is kinda risky.. I just found out that TEFL certificate is popular there as Koreans are crazy for learning English. I am considering to take up this course and get this certificate so I have dual income or higher chance survival.
New Outing
Today went to teach Jessica Korean. After that, went to somewhere I think at Katong? I forgot. It is a famous Nasi Lemak shop with Michell, Eve, Seb and Jessica. Nice outing but I got no make up on so I feel little awkward there.
Anyway, just got one new China student. He's funny cuz when I ask him where is comfortable to study outside. He suggested SWENSEN. I was like "OMG, Swensen... before I earn your money, you've make me spend money. Hahaha"
In addition, I just bought a mineral make up powder foundation since mineral make up is better for acne prone face. But is a in house product. In house means, the person make the product out on his/her own, no advertising or contract with companies.. Own brand, I have checked the ingredients, is quite safe to use unless I am allergy to certain minerals.
Overall, I think I did a good job today.haha cuz I didnt put make up. I was tempted to put make up today because of the new China student. BUT! I have to keep my promise so... I decided not to put make up. To be true, there is still people looking at me weird but I wasnt really affected that much. I'm glad I didnt put it too much on my mind. :)
Guys, having or earning big money is not a big deal. The big deal is to know how to make good use of the money in this current society. Future is always there if you don't give up.
So Jia You to all those struggling for that as this is not the end, it is the start of the challenge. Why millionaire can be millionaire, billionaire can be billionaire, singer can be singer..etc. That because they all have something that what others dont have===> Fighting spirit (never give up + positive attitude + determination + perserverance + confidence)
SO! We must have fighting spirits! We might not have it right away but we can instill it throughout our life. It doesnt matter when you start, how long you take because what matters is
Anyway, just got one new China student. He's funny cuz when I ask him where is comfortable to study outside. He suggested SWENSEN. I was like "OMG, Swensen... before I earn your money, you've make me spend money. Hahaha"
In addition, I just bought a mineral make up powder foundation since mineral make up is better for acne prone face. But is a in house product. In house means, the person make the product out on his/her own, no advertising or contract with companies.. Own brand, I have checked the ingredients, is quite safe to use unless I am allergy to certain minerals.
Overall, I think I did a good job today.haha cuz I didnt put make up. I was tempted to put make up today because of the new China student. BUT! I have to keep my promise so... I decided not to put make up. To be true, there is still people looking at me weird but I wasnt really affected that much. I'm glad I didnt put it too much on my mind. :)
Guys, having or earning big money is not a big deal. The big deal is to know how to make good use of the money in this current society. Future is always there if you don't give up.
So Jia You to all those struggling for that as this is not the end, it is the start of the challenge. Why millionaire can be millionaire, billionaire can be billionaire, singer can be singer..etc. That because they all have something that what others dont have===> Fighting spirit (never give up + positive attitude + determination + perserverance + confidence)
SO! We must have fighting spirits! We might not have it right away but we can instill it throughout our life. It doesnt matter when you start, how long you take because what matters is
the life in the no. of years you've live,
not
the no. of years you've live in your life.
Throughout these years, I begin to have this belief===> we were born to learn to acquire fighting spirits and use it in our life.
My dreams
not
the no. of years you've live in your life.
Throughout these years, I begin to have this belief===> we were born to learn to acquire fighting spirits and use it in our life.
My dreams
- Go Korea and work as a piano teacher or singer
- Buy a house
- Buy a grand piano
Monday, April 13, 2009
Honey
Today I learnt new stuff. Manuka Honey that you get from some other place like NatXXX XarX are processed active honey, so it will taste VERY sweet and got a WEIRD smell. All the while I thought that the real honey but honey actually suppose to be sour plus abit sweet. easy to swallow.. I WANT TO BUY! Is good for health and throat. It is cheaper that those manuka honey but I have not enough money now.. So I got to planned. :)
Finished Canon in D soon. Saw teacher's comment saying I'm talented and I was kinda... hmmmm... cant believe it. Am I really that talented? But when I see people on youtube playing those I yearn to play.. I was like.. OMG, they are crazy. Also, I'm jealous when people tagged on the video saying " sorry, pls don't ask me for the music score, I played this by ear...etc" !@#$%^&*()_ Freaking talented I was thinking. How I wish I can be like them. I am always greedy.
I've got a problem. Most Korean music sheets post online are not original pieces so it'll sound different. I've found the original pieces but is on korean webby and have to purchase it. I don't mind purchasing them but I don't know how. Anyone got any suggestions?
Finished Canon in D soon. Saw teacher's comment saying I'm talented and I was kinda... hmmmm... cant believe it. Am I really that talented? But when I see people on youtube playing those I yearn to play.. I was like.. OMG, they are crazy. Also, I'm jealous when people tagged on the video saying " sorry, pls don't ask me for the music score, I played this by ear...etc" !@#$%^&*()_ Freaking talented I was thinking. How I wish I can be like them. I am always greedy.
I've got a problem. Most Korean music sheets post online are not original pieces so it'll sound different. I've found the original pieces but is on korean webby and have to purchase it. I don't mind purchasing them but I don't know how. Anyone got any suggestions?
Friday, April 10, 2009
Addicted
I'm addicted to uploading my video.. Kinda feeling that 'hey! this is my product.' Continue to upload more songs, I want to learn more songs and play and upload. Hee~
Thursday, April 9, 2009
My 2nd video
In The Groove - Zheng Meiqin
This is really not well played. Is my exam piece for grade 5 anyway. I played untill my 5th wanna break man.. haha..
This is really not well played. Is my exam piece for grade 5 anyway. I played untill my 5th wanna break man.. haha..
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
My Virgin Video~~
Iljimae - Zheng Meiqin
This is my first video. Not really well played but just wanna improve on my playing. Bad finger habits 0.O Got to improve on it. Anyway.. hope it wont be a nuisance. ^^ Also, Thanks a lot who helped me to take this video--- my pig sis :)
This is my first video. Not really well played but just wanna improve on my playing. Bad finger habits 0.O Got to improve on it. Anyway.. hope it wont be a nuisance. ^^ Also, Thanks a lot who helped me to take this video--- my pig sis :)
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
No Make Up Day
Today I didnt put make up today for the whole day! Well I not sure what will happen to my face but it took me some time to even step out of the house. Got the temptation to put it on so in the end I wake my sis up to help me. Finally I went out.
At first, there are people who really give me the look but later on they sense something so they quite auto not to look for long. I didnt really feel pressurized but keep telling myself, "is good for my face, I am doing the right. Is ok, I can do it" etc.
I did a good job! What shall I reward myself? Hmmm I still have one wed to go. See how.. Jia You Jia You. I just put this song 'loving you' in my blog.
Joke of the Day
Conversation with my sis and some irritating sound~
Me: Mei, I want to hear my blog song. Quick
Sis: Ok...
(My sis went to bathe after that)
15min later
(while the song is repeating, I was serving net)
Sis: Lalalalala,lalalaala. AHHHHHH~~~!
Me: STOP IT! what you singing?
Sis: hahahaha What?
Song still playing until certain part... then..
Me: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~
Sis: AHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~
At first, there are people who really give me the look but later on they sense something so they quite auto not to look for long. I didnt really feel pressurized but keep telling myself, "is good for my face, I am doing the right. Is ok, I can do it" etc.
I did a good job! What shall I reward myself? Hmmm I still have one wed to go. See how.. Jia You Jia You. I just put this song 'loving you' in my blog.
Joke of the Day
Conversation with my sis and some irritating sound~
Me: Mei, I want to hear my blog song. Quick
Sis: Ok...
(My sis went to bathe after that)
15min later
(while the song is repeating, I was serving net)
Sis: Lalalalala,lalalaala. AHHHHHH~~~!
Me: STOP IT! what you singing?
Sis: hahahaha What?
Song still playing until certain part... then..
Me: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~
Sis: AHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Read and Read
Been reading on High On health website for information. Get to know many information but kinda confused.. Need to read it again to understand. Anyway, is not a bad website. Be care of acne.org regimen. I've never tried it but it seems to be risky. Erm... you can google it and try it and see how it was. I think I should follow the natural treatment.
Just tried Apple Cider Vinegar with plain flour for spot treatment. It works as my pimples and hidden acnes are smaller. BUT is only one day.. Shall try it again today. Hazeline working well, however I just read we shouldnt moisturise unnecessarily as it'll make the face to become lazier. In long term, face from oily might become too dry. So cautious, people.
I have just changed by pay system to monthly instead of 'lessonly' so it might be easier to handle my own finance
Life is unpredictable and it's true. Yesterday I heard the news while using Internet that an woman was trying to hang some clothes outside and accidentally fall down to death from 8th floor. But, the thing is I just got news that that woman is my sec school tablemate's mother. It kinda.... weird feeling.. I don't know how to describe but I think since we are born on this earth, this world, this society, we need to learn to accept both the good and bad.
I haven been enjoying my life. I really hope to go on some holiday trip with my friends or my family. but I think family should be my second priority cuz I am going to fork most of the fees if I am going to bring them out. That too tiring. Maybe when my sis is more mature, I might be able to achieve. If not, I don't mind going alone to somewhere but I think I am unable to get back singapore if I do that. LOLX
Just tried Apple Cider Vinegar with plain flour for spot treatment. It works as my pimples and hidden acnes are smaller. BUT is only one day.. Shall try it again today. Hazeline working well, however I just read we shouldnt moisturise unnecessarily as it'll make the face to become lazier. In long term, face from oily might become too dry. So cautious, people.
I have just changed by pay system to monthly instead of 'lessonly' so it might be easier to handle my own finance
Life is unpredictable and it's true. Yesterday I heard the news while using Internet that an woman was trying to hang some clothes outside and accidentally fall down to death from 8th floor. But, the thing is I just got news that that woman is my sec school tablemate's mother. It kinda.... weird feeling.. I don't know how to describe but I think since we are born on this earth, this world, this society, we need to learn to accept both the good and bad.
I haven been enjoying my life. I really hope to go on some holiday trip with my friends or my family. but I think family should be my second priority cuz I am going to fork most of the fees if I am going to bring them out. That too tiring. Maybe when my sis is more mature, I might be able to achieve. If not, I don't mind going alone to somewhere but I think I am unable to get back singapore if I do that. LOLX
Saturday, April 4, 2009
YES
Today I just got to know that my practical exams got an MERIT! yes~~~~! Although is not a distinction but I thought I would just passed as I didnt played the 3 pieces well. Now I am more determined to play my piano. Still the fees is a problem but my teacher was able to work out something for me so that I can take my grade 8 next year. Yes I am taking my grade 8 piano next year.
It serve as a 强心针 for me in future. :) Effort does paid off. This will apply to my face too.
It serve as a 强心针 for me in future. :) Effort does paid off. This will apply to my face too.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Acne... Acne... Acne... Money... Money.. Money...
Went for facial treatment yesterday. Although is cleaned. Somehow, new ones are popping out. Kinda despair. Feel like giving up, just let it be and do my own stuff. TCM? getting lower and lower confidence..... Sometime, I just feel like throw all my make up but I have no courage to face the outside world with my raw face. I'm scared yet everyday I am doing something bad to my face. You cant imagine how bad it is. That's just because Shu Uemura foundation is damn good. But I am not using these few weeks. I start to use BB cream.....
Can I just GIVE UP? Anyway, went to look online to see some website on acne, see how others deal with it. There is this webby that I have to be in the story and I'm start stage 4b(last yr July) according to the doctor's story. But now I not sure where I stand and what I should do.
http://www.acnepractice.com/info/the-acne-story.htm
I only know cleanse and moisturise.. I use Hazeline cream for moisturising.. cheap and have lived for around like 60 yrs or more? It's there since my grandma was born. Sick and tired using over-the-counter products even though I still view about its info.
I am not hoping to become some beauty or what. Just wanna have a normal face, healthy skin.
Well good news is when people are in wits end, that where the turing point is and I hope the turing point will be around my corner soon.
I considering not to put make up on every monday and wednesday. Don't ask me why. I just wanna convince myself to start first. Just do it with this 2 days............................ And I am not going to put concealor and loose powder everyday. Just the bb cream and acne treatment cream. Can I do it? I hope so. I'm afraid of people's expression.
My own enouragement:
Can I just GIVE UP? Anyway, went to look online to see some website on acne, see how others deal with it. There is this webby that I have to be in the story and I'm start stage 4b(last yr July) according to the doctor's story. But now I not sure where I stand and what I should do.
http://www.acnepractice.com/info/the-acne-story.htm
I only know cleanse and moisturise.. I use Hazeline cream for moisturising.. cheap and have lived for around like 60 yrs or more? It's there since my grandma was born. Sick and tired using over-the-counter products even though I still view about its info.
I am not hoping to become some beauty or what. Just wanna have a normal face, healthy skin.
Well good news is when people are in wits end, that where the turing point is and I hope the turing point will be around my corner soon.
I considering not to put make up on every monday and wednesday. Don't ask me why. I just wanna convince myself to start first. Just do it with this 2 days............................ And I am not going to put concealor and loose powder everyday. Just the bb cream and acne treatment cream. Can I do it? I hope so. I'm afraid of people's expression.
My own enouragement:
Hang on there, Meiqin
Everything is gonna to be fine. There is always a solution to it. It may not be the best solution in the world. But it will a solution that fits u the most. Best solution doesnt mean that it suits u the most. Hang on there, you'll soon found it.
난 할 수있다!
Everything is gonna to be fine. There is always a solution to it. It may not be the best solution in the world. But it will a solution that fits u the most. Best solution doesnt mean that it suits u the most. Hang on there, you'll soon found it.
난 할 수있다!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Disgusting Experience!
For the first time, I had such an acne on my face. Usually acne are big protruding 'bob'. They are might painful at times. This time, I got an acne on my right cheek that is not protruding at all. It is totally inside or underneath my face.. not as ugly as those big acnes I got in the past. BUT! it is a big hard lump underneath my skin and is painful and "hot" all the time. I was so upset by it because whenever I smile, I can feel the lump there.
So I tried to put some soothing cream plus a special milk powder called "IMU 6 colostrum" use as mask to fight the inflammation (usually when the pimple/acne feels warm or hot, it is having some inflammation.) For the past few days, the inflammations has quietened down till today..... something happen......................
I woke up this morning, took a bath and wash my face. I could feel that the lump was getting smaller and softer. So i thought "ok, it is getting better, I must have patience." However, when I took a closer look, I saw some transparent liquid on that acne. But I thought, "I didnt squeeze it. How come?" So I make a very very gentle squeeze and some liquid pus was flowing out. I was like OMG. When the pus are out, the first thing to do, is to clean it thoroughly.. one for all, all for one. If not, more serious consequences will come to me... shit. So I squeeze it again to see what happen... the pus SPURTS out. It really spurts and my head jerk back. After that, some blood could be seen. These blood are full of dirt as they lived with the pus like for a week, so have to clean it. So I try to make sure, all these blood are out of the horrible place by squeezing it. The blood SPURTS out! My head jerked back the second time and I start to whine~ I dreamt of worms coming out from it man. My heart was pounding when I could feel the warm blood got on my finger. After that, I try to stop the blood flowing out by pressing on it(Applying pressure will increase rate of blood clot) and then I applied clarifying toner to get rid bacteria and dirt and applied hazeline cream to let it cool down. Final outcome = the lump is gone, scar is left)
It was a horrible experience, I thought I was experience some operation or something. I know it might sounds funny but it is ever the first time I deal with this kind of acne. The experience is horrible.. it really respond like a volcano, not because of the shape but the way it respond. I never had this before and I;m experiencing it now after the facial treatment..... .... ... I really need help. I have decided after my crisis, I shall saved some money to for TCM.
Ok it a long post.. Let have a Joke.
Story: My sister is a pig.
My sis and I was having some sms conversation and after that we discuss about the conversation. This is what had happened.
sis: Jie, where is my 2 hairclips?
Me: one is at the kitchen, the other is on the computer desk.
sis: I only found one. There nth at the com desk.
Me: It is there. I confirmed is there. I saw it before I left the house.
5 sec later..
Me: OH! Mei, is on the pig's ear.. pai sei, I remember wrongly.
My sister went to touch her ears when she received this sms.
Sis:Don't have! Where is the hairclip?!?!?!
Me: Is on the pig pillow's ear! U pig!
My sis went to her bedroom and search her pillow. After that, she got buay tahan and went to my bedroom. So she saw the pig pillow and found the clip! LOLXXX
This is the pig pillow in my room
So I tried to put some soothing cream plus a special milk powder called "IMU 6 colostrum" use as mask to fight the inflammation (usually when the pimple/acne feels warm or hot, it is having some inflammation.) For the past few days, the inflammations has quietened down till today..... something happen......................
I woke up this morning, took a bath and wash my face. I could feel that the lump was getting smaller and softer. So i thought "ok, it is getting better, I must have patience." However, when I took a closer look, I saw some transparent liquid on that acne. But I thought, "I didnt squeeze it. How come?" So I make a very very gentle squeeze and some liquid pus was flowing out. I was like OMG. When the pus are out, the first thing to do, is to clean it thoroughly.. one for all, all for one. If not, more serious consequences will come to me... shit. So I squeeze it again to see what happen... the pus SPURTS out. It really spurts and my head jerk back. After that, some blood could be seen. These blood are full of dirt as they lived with the pus like for a week, so have to clean it. So I try to make sure, all these blood are out of the horrible place by squeezing it. The blood SPURTS out! My head jerked back the second time and I start to whine~ I dreamt of worms coming out from it man. My heart was pounding when I could feel the warm blood got on my finger. After that, I try to stop the blood flowing out by pressing on it(Applying pressure will increase rate of blood clot) and then I applied clarifying toner to get rid bacteria and dirt and applied hazeline cream to let it cool down. Final outcome = the lump is gone, scar is left)
It was a horrible experience, I thought I was experience some operation or something. I know it might sounds funny but it is ever the first time I deal with this kind of acne. The experience is horrible.. it really respond like a volcano, not because of the shape but the way it respond. I never had this before and I;m experiencing it now after the facial treatment..... .... ... I really need help. I have decided after my crisis, I shall saved some money to for TCM.
Ok it a long post.. Let have a Joke.
Story: My sister is a pig.
My sis and I was having some sms conversation and after that we discuss about the conversation. This is what had happened.
sis: Jie, where is my 2 hairclips?
Me: one is at the kitchen, the other is on the computer desk.
sis: I only found one. There nth at the com desk.
Me: It is there. I confirmed is there. I saw it before I left the house.
5 sec later..
Me: OH! Mei, is on the pig's ear.. pai sei, I remember wrongly.
My sister went to touch her ears when she received this sms.
Sis:Don't have! Where is the hairclip?!?!?!
Me: Is on the pig pillow's ear! U pig!
My sis went to her bedroom and search her pillow. After that, she got buay tahan and went to my bedroom. So she saw the pig pillow and found the clip! LOLXXX
This is the pig pillow in my room
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