思念

Sometime missing someone can be a torture but it can be a wonderful thing also．Ｃｕｒｒｅｎｔｌｙ　Ｉ am reading this book called "Unlimited Power" by Anthony Robins and is a pretty good book. Especially when you want to learn to control your mind.

Ｆｏｒ　ｔｈｅ　ｐａｓｔ　ｄｏｎ＇ｔ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｈｏｗ　ｍａｎｙ　ｙｅａｒｓ, I lost this "missing someone" feeling and now it came like a silent bell but I am not going to let this feeling control me rather I want to control it. Sometime, it isnt necessary to really see/talk to the person to ease this feeling. ｍｙ　ｐｉｇ　ｓｉｓｔｅｒ　ｈａｐｐｅｎ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｏｐｐｏｓｉｔｅ．　Ｓｈｅ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｔｕｒｎ　ｈｅｒｓｅｌｆ　ｆｒｏｍ　ａ　ｐｉｇ　　ｔｏ　ａ　ｔｉｇｅｒ－ｌｉｋｅ　ｐｉｇ　ｉｆ　ｓｈｅ　ｍｉｓｓｅｓ　ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ　ｔｏｏ　ｍｕｃｈ　ｗｈｉｌｅ　Ｉ will turn into a ｉｍｍｏｂｉｌized　ｐｉｇ　ｗｈｏ　ｉｓ　ｔｒｙｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｇｅｔ　itｓｅｌｆ　ａｓ　ｂｕｓｙ　ａｓ　ｐｏｓｓｉｂｌｅ　ｂｕｔ　ｉｔ　ｄｉｄｎｔ　ｈａｐｐｅｎ　ｔｏｄａｙ　ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ　Ｉ have many questions that were not solved yet. Been pondering the whole day and I　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｇｅｔ　ｄｏｗｎ　ｔｏ　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ．　Ｍａｙｂｅ　ｔｈｅ　ｔｉｍｅ　ｉｓ　ｎｏｔ　right　ｙｅｔ．

My 2nd half of the world is a brand new world that I　ｍａｙ　ｎｏｔ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｈｏｗ　ｔｏ　ｈａｎｄｌｅ　ｂｕｔ　Ｔｈａｎｋ　ｇｏｄ，　Ｉ had James beside me to help me even though I　ｄｉｄｎ　ｈｅｅｄ　ｍｕｃｈ　ｏｆ　ｈｉｓ　ａｄｖｉｃｅ. I　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｔａｋｅ　ｕｐ　ｔｈｅ　ｃｈｏｉｃｅ　ｔｈａｔ　I want.　Ｍａｙｂｅ　ｉｔ　ｄｏｅｓｎｔ　ｓｅｅｍｓ　ｇｏｏｄ，　ｂｕｔ 　ｔｈｉｎｇｓ　ａｒｅ　ｓｏ　ｕｐｒｅｄｉｃｔａｂｌｅ　ｔｈａｔ　ｍａｋｅｓ　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ　ｉｓ　ｒｉｇｈｔ　ｏｒ　ｗｒｏｎｇ．　Ｍａｎｙ　ｔｉｍｅｓ　Ｉ rather feel I am in the greyish area.　Ｓｏ　Ｉ　ｄｅｃｉｄｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｏｎｇ　ｌｙｒｉｃｓ．．

我学着不去担心太远，

不计划太多反而能勇敢冒险。

丰富的过每一天 快乐的过每一天。

-心墙（郭静）

Ｗｅｌｌ，　ｔｈａｔ　ｒｅｆｅｒｓ　ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｐｏｉｎｔ　ｏｆ　ｖｉｅｗ　ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｌｉｆｅ．　ｍｙ　ｆｕｔｕｒｅ　ｗｉｓｅ，　ｍｏｎｅｙ　ｉｓ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｉｍｐｏｒｔａｎｔ　ｓｉｎｃｅ　Ｉ got to look after my family.