做人脚踏实地， 良知如清水般清澈。

Read Lane's blog, remind of my mistake in the past. To trust someone too much till I bring myself own trouble. My greed and naive had cost me 6 months of fanatic teachings plus owing debts here and there.

If because of money, I decided to give up a friend. Is this materialistic of me? I always thought it going to be this way, moreover, it takes two hands to clap. So I decide to forgive this person and give him some time to overcome his problems.

But recently, I got contact of him and he seems of no change. I was like in dilemma. So I called another person. He whom I treat him like my advisor whenever I have problems, especially emotionally. Well I got an answer.

If he is going to drag and think he can escape from this. Then I will say, he will gain a freedom of getting away but he is going to lose me. I never ever give up any of my friends because I always though human are always kind in nature. Even if they did something wrong, that's might be because he/she didnt know it was wrong. But there is one thing, selfishness.

Some people will do certain things that benefits themselves yet might harm others simultaneously. THEY KNEW IT AND THEY choose DO IT so.

It is just a small amount of money but instead of apologising, instead of cooperating, he still dare to ask more money from me.. I only thought this would happen in drama but in fact in real life it is so real.

人生如戏， 戏如人生

I am still glad almost all my friends are considered decent, optimistic, confident, cheerful, determined...etc Just cant find any people who is as crazy as me.. hahahahaha

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Somehow I am moody today, dont know why. But I am happy to buy the materials for the christmas presents! kinda exciting~~

Had some heartfelt conversations with my sis and she cried. I think she start to realise things doesnt come so easy. I am tired. Update soon.

Kboxing

Went K Boxing with Lane, Vin and my sis. My pig sis dont dare to sing sia.. hhahaha.. Anyway, i sang untill I break voice..Lol k la test my limits. Muahahhahahahha..

Recently I just found some cheap materials and interesting ideas for my Christmas presents this year.. Think this year can do some mass productions. It is real cheap and nice I guess.. Woohoo~~! Shall go to Ikea and take a look again.

Doing my financial planning.. wanted to alter or make some adjustments to it. Economic recession does affect my income as it affect the parents' income which lead to late late late payments. Moreover, the GIRO thingy just deducted 400 in a go for the education repayment system. %^&*(_ well, got to pay it in future anyway. So I treat it as some late payment interest. My income had some slight increase. Instead of saving more, I think I shall make use of this extra income to pay off those short term liabilities such as education repayment scheme and my braces instalments. My debts are growing so does my income, really must monitor closely. Shall update more after planning....

I am stubborn and inflexible and I need to change?
My sis suggest me to be more flexible by being not to tight with myself. HmMmMmm.........

To Do Lists

To Do List(June)

1. Pay bills
2. Pay Korean Fee in July
3. Go Jeff house.....
4. Get Mom's insurance done
5. complete 6th apart scales
   

To Do List (July)

1. Attend Korean Lesson again
2. See dentist
3. pay bills...bills and bills
4. Chromatic scales(1st week)
5. Appeggios(2nd)

What to say

My schedule are a bit cocked up due to my laziness. Really feel like giving myself a tight slap. Sometimes, when I am too strict to myself, I feel pressurised. Sometime, well, too loose, I cant get things done. how?

ANS: Balance!

I haven been practising piano, nor singing. Just watching drama and playing PSP. IDiot!

Tomorrow I shall get things done.

To Do List for tml

1. Get back to my daily practise schedule.
   
2. Learn to play scales.
3. Major 3rd apart pitching test.
4. Vocal pract
5. Work on 1 song
6. Mark paper (I hate it the most)
7. Review my blog on this post
8. Make to do list again for the next 1 month.
9. Financially planning time
   

Pondering

Today had been to K. Well, I was ok la. I didnt expect too much since I didnt practise hard for it. Just that, I keep telling myself, "is ok, is ok. I need to focus on piano now. Singing really have to be aside." Of course I could have do it simultaneously. People might said, "you have loads of time, you should be able to do it."

However, it doesnt happen this way for me. When you are very weak at both stuff and wanna work on it together, it difficult to improve. Especially my weakness is I tend to get distracted easily. So I need to have a basic standard of one and then getting started on the other. Meanwhile, I practise on my pitching anfd rhythm so as to aid in my learning in singing in future. I miss my own singing. I didnt find my own real singing today, just merely singing through the lyrics and relax. Don't really care about how well I sang. Rather, I listen to the good singers. Could learn something from them..

OK LA.. as long as I keep to my schedule, I should be able to learn at least 1 song. Just 1 song. Let me think of one. I think I shouldnt care if the song is suitable. Just choose one that is not so difficult and not so easy yet achievable for me. I should! P.S I Love You?

Leveraging. Umpteen times I have heard it but I still don't truly understand the power. I think I will only understand when I make it happen. I never thought of leveraging my time..... Business is a good way? only way? effective way? Somehow I find it difficult. Difficult, not only is how to do it but my main concern is how to perserve through the road. It doesnt happen as saying "OH I shall perserve and continue." only. BOTTOM LINE: no confidence

To me, I may not be talent in playing piano or singing. But I am confident that I can perserve and be unshaken by whatever circumstance or hardship or difficulties that is going to be infront of me.

Whatever it is, it is a good advice from my friends. It makes me ponder about things that I never thought of.

Pisces' second weakness: THINK TOO MUCH.

hahahahahahhaha :P

Cutie is obsessed with the apple~

^^

I think it is trying to do something yoga? some stunts lol

Wad is it?

husband.. only cares about food...

Monsters Vs Aliens

Ever since few years ago, once again, I laugh until like shit. Damn funny the movie. Luckily there is no one beside and I laugh happily loudly and crazily. hahaha..

My sis is a pig.......... Mi Hae is a PIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Famil;y outing

This is the latest theme song of family outing. Not all are professional singers but I am sure they are great hosts. GReat and Funny. Thanks to this show, it brings me a lot of laughter and brighten my days, especially with guest that are famous, like DBSK, Jun Ki and Rain. Somehow they will have sparks. Hahhaha





I went to see TCM doc yesterday. Currently my health status is quite ok but just a bit poor 'qi' cirrculation. Doctor STRONGLY advise on my mood and sleeping time. MOOD MOOD MOOD is very important, must always maintain good mood. I felt guilty when he said that. But he had thought me some exercise to do. Some are especially for when I am angry.

Pray

I pray for the Air France Plane to be found as soon as possible. I empathize the dead for they are down there very cold and trapped at the deep deep sea of don't know how many fathoms.

Pray... ...

Yawn~~~~~~~~`

The dog is morgel which was abandoned. Now it is at some orphanage home, waiting to be adopt.

Bought some motivating posters to be paste in my room.

My cutie~~

Today had a pri 6 tuition and went to Novena with Rara and Eve and had our dinner at an Korean Restaurant. BUT! I forgot what the name. Aiya.. the food there are not bad. Their Vanilla ice cream is nice but I don't really like sweet tough nowadays so it doesnt suit my taste so I took the yoghurt ice cream. It turned that the yoghurt ice cream doesnt suit eve and Rara taste also. Hahaha. I just prefer sour stuff after meal, especially something full. Sour taste will be smoother and comfortable for me to accept.

识法代言人

really not bad. Now going to watch "Young Warriors of the yang Clan". Meaningful? I am not sure. But I know it is a very touching drama and I always love to watch, not only it is funny, it is very family-oriented drama. Just like the above drama...

Nicey~

Today I am quite free so I went to e hub to watch "Blood the Last Vampire". It was nicey as in the story was touching. I am not sure is it predictable story but I am able to predict it. BINGO! wad a nice twist of twist. SHOULD GO and Watch!!! It is nice!!!

Again, had solemn talk with my student and he cried but I am not sure because of me or of his mum. He had kinda bad relationship with his mum. Whatever it is, the parents had asked me to stay to help and not to give up. I just let the student know, anymore rubbish and nonsense, I'll will just leave right away. Received new students today, kind of people that are keen to improve so I am happy :)

Next, watching Subaru and Aliens vs Mosters. MUhahaha.. tomorrow going to eat hop pot with my girlfriends. 21 June going party world.

Oh ya, nowaday I keep rewatching drama as the recent drama are getting more and more meaningless. This drama is my 3rd time watching also. really worth. Meaningful and nice storylines and positive attitude. This drama is called............

A day with many incidents happening

1. My mum want to go hospital as she has been vomiting for 2 hours and the whole family go along
2. My sis and her bf took an abandon home without asking my permission but only my Mum's.
3. Her BF cried and run away and went to drink beer after I had scolded him.

I was liked wtf..... Ok.. my Mum had a stomach upset and went to Changi Hospital from 9.30pm to 12am and I sit there rotting. Meanwhile I asked my sis to go back and settled the dog as I will NEVER allow any dogs in my house. So me and my mum went home and I saw the DOG.. it is a puppy. I was puzzled as I told them to settle the dog. SO I called my sis's bf and asked him what happen.

conversation

Me: where are you? Why arent the dog settled?
Him: OH I met my friend on the way home, so I meet my friend. MeiHui doesnt want to accompany me so she is alone now.
Me: I dont care where and what you doing now. You 2 better come back and settle now!

I hanged up the call immediately. Deserved scolding from me, isnt it? What kinda of rubbish reason is this? I let them go back early is to settle the problem. Moreover, he left my sister alone while he is trying to comfort his heartbroken friend. My sister also another. Only sit there and wait for 1 hour and crying alone. I could have just left him if I were her. What this couple doing, I am really not sure.

After thet came home, I tell him off.

conversation

Me: Pls read the sms that I sent

一遇到你的朋友，就把我的事情放在一边。
你到底会不会分轻重的！
我不是美慧，不要给我一些笨理由或借口就像打发我！
you better come home and settle it now!

Him: Jiejie, if you don't like me you can say, I can disappear the next time.
Me:

Yes! I don't like you but I have no choice, the one who is in love in you is not me, is my sis! I am not trying to pick on you. I just don't like irresponsible actions. Not saying that ur friend are not important. But you have to let me know that you cant settle right away when I have told me to do so. Even if it is concidence that u met ur friend, you could call me or sms me to let me know. You two are always like this! Doing things with no responsibilities! The thing I HATE the most is to find out the truth on my own when you could have let me know before that. The whole family know I hate this very much and I will be very angry. Hello, you are a guy somemore, can you be more responsible.

3 second silence.

My sis: I'm sorry
Me: Bring the dog in and I want to talk to you also.

He started to cry and ran out of my house immediately and my sister wanted to get hold of him but I stopped her.( I admit my mistake, I shouldnt have stopped my sis).

After which I talk to my sister the same thing again. After 2 hours, my sister wanted to cry saying that she was sick and tired of finding him everytime. If she don't, that guy will thought that she dont care for him if she dont find him. AND he purposely dont pick up the call.
(Stupid right, a guy living as though as 12 year old girl) . I really wanted to my sis leave this guy, I really don't see anything good in him. He has manners but the manners don't come from his heart, is just for the sake for my sister. To others, he don't act this way. and his character really no good.

He went to drank beer, he was drunk and scolded my sis on the phone. Because of this, my sister could sleep last night and she didnt the night before too. I don't why my sister wanted to be like him. Not only they don't know how to love each other, they don't know how to love their ownselves. BIG BIG DISAPPOINTMENT.

so now he really vanished. he better don't come...

The dog, I really object. I like dogs actually and I planned to have one but not now. My house is so messy everywhere, it is not clean. My sister and mum don't have enough hygiene knowledge. They just used a cloth and wiped off the urine and that all. OMG, that's urine, not water, got smell, got sticky feeling one lor. This is an abandon dog so it is not trained. Even if I want to train, it doesnt take hours or days, it takes more than that. NOW my house is full of uring smell, including my room! FUCK, I should have closed the door tightly. I am living like a 3 room toilet. SUPER BIG toilet. No one is cleaning it and I never be the one cleaning because I didnt agree to let it stay my house initially.

ME TOO. I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY. BUT I'LL STAY AND TRY TO SOLVE THE PROBLEMS.

TO DO LIST

• get someone to send the dog to police or spca
• get someone to mop the whole house
• clean my own room
• talk to my sis again.
  

Energy Booster

Yesterday, I just went to popular to buy some assessment books. But I didnt get to buy any. Somehow the books and variation are getting lesser and lesser. I still prefer the old versions.

Anyway, I saw books! I was eager to buy new one to read. But I am stuck with "Think and Grow Rich". It is chimology man.... So I try not to buy.. but I still bought one book. Not reading type but some massaging book, it is called "The Energy Booster". Applying some pressure to certain acupoints to boost energy or to relax the body, increase metabolism etc.. It teaches how to breather correctly, doing some exercise that promotion circulation of "qi" in our body. Kind of what I need.

My fingers or knuckles are bit painful these few days and I don't why. And I realised my fingers are crooked! alamak~

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